When they give you advice, take it

Well, please skip this post. I'm posting this post in case Jiayi/ Mutant grape wanna read. & to remind myself to not make the same mistake

Last night was a mess.


& I really have to thank Jiayi for helping me to talk out things with him. She woke up in the middle of the night just to help us clear things up.



I didn't sleep well, because I cried for two bloody hours. I really felt as if I'm gonna cry my eyeballs out and die. I have never felt so horrible for months. Jiayi called me and I can't even talk because I was like catching my breath and crying super hard. Friggin' horrible.


& Guess what, my eyes are swollen today, which means that IT BECAME SMALLER. Ohmahgod!!!


I woke up at 9 a.m today, because I couldn't sleep and I felt that I needed to settle things with him.

I feel really confused now. I feel like switching off my phone for the entire day and just go MIA. I need time to think about everything.


& Today is actually my brother's 12th birthday. Who would have knew the night before it turns out so crazy.

I hope the shopping trip on tues can cheer me up. I think I'll have a long talk with Jiayi (:

My post is messed up, because I'm feeling messed up. Lmao -.-

& I really regret not taking Mutant Grape's advice. I knew that fire was dangerous, but I was stubborn and continued to play with it. Now I have wounds all over and I can't blame anyone for it. ( Not real fire lah! Its just an example -.- )

Okay, I'll post later, hopefully with peekchars!

xoxo,
Juliana